- Sat an IQ test. Pride: 1, irrationally *
- Maths assignment #5, Jacobians and Fourier analysis. Pride: 3.
- Started making SymPy uni notes. Pride: 4
- Big idea: an Age of Em visualisation. Pride:
- Wrote about learning but not internalising. Pride: 3.
- Wrote a snarky little bit about the qualitative and quantitative. Pride: 1
- Wrote about Pi and Tau. Pride: 2.
- Wrote again about the maximum wage. Pride: 1
- Fixed the pipeline (not my job) with bash and long hours. Pride: 3.
* I once argued with a gay friend about what I saw as misuse of the concept "pride" in world Pride events. You should only be proud of things you have actually done, not just proud of who you are.** I insisted that the broader concept they're looking for - in conducting an intentional, public valuation to counter ancient and systematic degradation - is "esteem".
In the general population, I argued, this confusion is one cause of the vast and hollow parade of achievement-free self-promotion and celebrity, as evidenced by e.g. Instagram. I opined that there was no reason to think that LGBT people would escape this corrosion if the distinction between earned pride and unearned esteem were not popularly upheld.
I further offered three resolutions to the contradiction of a Pride march:
- Make it clearer that the pride is due to being out, still a very brave action in most of the world.
Alternatively, proud of having survived a homophobic upbringing.
- Reject the very strong evidence of a genetic influence on orientation, and suggest that all instances of nonheterosexuality are chosen.
- Change it to "Esteem".
She replied, "Nah, we'll just alter the usage of 'pride', cos 'esteem' doesn't sound as good".
And I said, "Och, ok."
** Sigh, yes, except insofar as you actually have invented your present self, which is a non-negligible amount for any functioning adult.